I Tried My Best

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The Seductive Lie of Effort

Victim mentality isn’t just self-sabotage—it’s contagious.

It doesn’t stop at you.

It drips into the people you love.

It dilutes what’s possible for everyone around you.

The only people who say “I tried my best” are the ones who failed.

When you succeed, you don’t need to explain your effort—it’s evident.

Success speaks for itself.

Picture this: a woman, half-naked in a frozen alley, breastfeeding her child, whispering, “I’m trying.”

That’s not a critique—it’s a mirror.

Everyone thinks they’re trying.

No matter how dire the circumstances, most will say they gave it their all.

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When Victimhood Becomes Identity

I’m not talking about those crushed by circumstance, or paralyzed by mental illness or disability.

We’re talking about the able-bodied. The mentally sound.

The ones who have the means—but choose stagnation.

The ones who act like life just happens to them, and that they aren’t complicit in their own demise.

Victimhood becomes a costume—

One people wear long after the wound has healed.

And the damage doesn’t stop with them.

It spreads.

You don’t just live in your excuse—

You teach it.

You normalize it.

You hand it off like a legacy.

Carl Jung said, “Nothing has a stronger influence psychologically on their children than the unlived life of the parent.”

You don’t just pass down your eyes or your smile.

You pass down your resignation.

You hand the people who love you the same backdoor you escaped through.

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The Confession That Builds Legacy

I’ve failed before.

I’ve blamed circumstances.

I’ve softened the truth so I could stomach it.

That’s how I know this pattern—I’ve rehearsed it.

I’ve lived it.

If I fail in life—with every opportunity laid at my feet—

And still tell those around me “I tried my best,”

I’m not just lying to myself.

I’m warping their definition of effort.

I’m giving them a backdoor to failure disguised as honesty.

You just told them that someone can try their very best in life…

and still end up with nothing.

Now failure isn’t something to overcome.

It’s an acceptable outcome.

A lifestyle.

You’ve made resignation feel noble.

But what if I didn’t lie?

What if I said:

I failed.

I messed up.

I was scared.

I took the easy path.

I wasted years.

I knew better—and I didn’t do better.

And then showed someone else how not to repeat me?

That’s not shame.

That’s legacy.

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The Scar Is the Lesson

People love to look like heroes.

Fair.

Be one.

But be the kind who admits they’ve bled.

Not the kind who hides every scar

and leaves the people who love them walking into the same traps blind.

You say you want those around you to do better than you.

Then be brave enough to show them your worst.

Strength isn’t in the cover-up.

It’s in the confession.

Victim mentality poisons clarity.

It muddies accountability.

It turns self-inflicted wounds into generational curses.

And worst of all?

It wraps itself in humility.

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Facing What You Refuse to Name

Don’t confuse honesty with weakness.

Don’t mistake excuses for depth.

James Baldwin said, “Not everything that is faced can be changed, but nothing can be changed until it is faced.”

But the modern lie is this:

If you feel bad enough, you don’t have to change.

Shame. Regret. Guilt—people use them as substitutes for transformation.

They confuse emotional suffering with moral progress.

They think if they hurt enough, it means they’ve grown.

But feeling bad isn’t change.

It’s often just the pain you choose instead of doing better.

And the irony? That pain becomes its own shield.

Don’t judge me—I already feel terrible.

Now no one can call them out. Not even themselves.

But pain isn’t the point.

Change is.

Because if guilt becomes a stand-in for responsibility,

It’s not virtue.

It’s vanity.

You don’t owe anyone your perfection.

But you owe them more than a self-pitying narrative.

If your truth flatters you, it’s not the truth.

It’s just the version you can live with.

Don’t mistake remorse for repentance.

One hurts. The other transforms.

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